As someone who regularly struggles with meditation, I’ve found that having a crystal there to anchor the process can help immensely. I can select a crystal based on its properties or my personal relationship with it, as it may support what I hope to meditate on, or I can select a crystal I know nothing about based solely on intuition and see what kind of magick we can make together.

In my previous post, Trust Your Crystals, I talk a lot about letting intuition play matchmaker in your crystal relationships. And in my post Crystal Meditations: Fluorite, I shared my first experience of meditating with a crystal, when I was studying for my certification in Crystal Healing. I think both posts share great examples of what cultivating that intuitive relationship can do, and I wanted to add another post to the bundle.

When I was studying, I was asked to choose at least two crystals I knew nothing about to meditate with, and then on my own continue doing so as I came to understand the stones I was working with. The second crystal I chose at that time was my moonstone, a beautiful piece that I had occasionally questioned the authenticity of (due to its source). Apparently, as you’ll come to read, whatever its origins had been didn’t hinder the connection we eventually made. Below are my journal entries from that time, as I struggled to stay consistent and try forming this new relationship, that has now lasted over a decade.

December 9th, 2015 – 2:15 pm

I’ve left an enormous gap between meditations, but I truly plan to be more consistent and involved in my meditation practice, starting today. I have finally begun my series of meditations with a new crystal for my Basics of Crystal Healing & Therapy class. Though I’m nearly through all of the classes, finishing my ohm-work is very important to me, as well as to my development as a successful crystal healer.

Today was my first meditation with my moonstone. When I first began this course and came to this first suggested assignment, I’d known immediately that I wanted to work with my rough fluorite, and I chose my rough moonstone as my second crystal because aside from knowing very little about it other than its ability to aid with menstrual cramps, it speaks to me of a gracious feminine energy, an all-around goddess stone. I gather a warm and almost milky energy from it.

Today I chose to sit on my bed, cross-legged with just the lamp on, and I set up a 10-minute meditation timer on my phone. I definitely felt a warm, tingling sensation as I held the moonstone in my left palm atop my knee, but it came and went rather than being consistent. I felt that next time I should lie down for the duration of the meditation so I will try that next time (tomorrow).

I tried to relax and get myself into an alpha state. It was difficult but I managed to clear my mind for brief moments and enter an almost “floaty” kind of state.

I didn’t receive any clear energies or messages that I could tell, but I did have consistent thoughts about taking better care of myself physically, and loving and nurturing my body. I am keeping this in mind, though as before, I will not do any research on my moonstone until I have finished my meditation sessions with it, so as to keep the sessions pure and unbiased.

I didn’t come away from my first meditation with very much, but I am eager for the next session and what I may learn.

xo

December 10th, 2015 – 6:30 pm

Just finished my second meditation with my moonstone. There was tingling in my palm a bit, but most noticeably when my brother briefly came downstairs. I had a very difficult time concentrating tonight, in spite of the quiet and the dark, and the fact that I laid down this time – which was definitely better.

I felt called to place the stone over my womb area, so I did, and a wonderful warmth flooded the entire cradle between my hipbones. There was even some palm tingling. No clear messages though. I feel like the blockage is within me, and once I find a way past it, the moonstone will open up to me and share her lessons.

xo

December 15th, 2015 – 8:42 am

If there’s a crystal that helps with building habits, I’ll invest in a truckload.

So I did my third moonstone meditation before bed last night (just after 11:00 pm) and I will say immediately that I still had a very difficult time concentrating and couldn’t pick up any messages or images. However, the physical sensations that came with this meditation were very prominent.

I immediately noticed a strong sensation where I held the moonstone, in my left hand (laying in bed), and it sort of came and went but it was very strong.

The only way I can describe it, is that it was like electrical pulses between the stone & my hand. The tingles were sharper, almost more pricking, but still very tingly, so I thought of electrical charges.

As I said, I received no messages that I could decipher, however, after my meditation was over, when I naturally fell into a better meditative state, I noticed a gentle pulsing feeling in my legs. My entire body felt wonderfully light and numb even, but there was a pulsing tingle through my legs that felt lovely. I fell asleep shortly after, listening to a favourite ASMR video, and had such vivid dreams.

I dreamt of [him], for the first time in ages, but as in the past, [she] was there and he hardly noticed me and nothing happened. There was a group of us again also; we weren’t alone.

I can’t say for sure, but I feel like the dream was a message to let him go, as I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately. I need to accept that our “what if” will never be answered, and move on with my life. It isn’t healthy to hold onto someone who won’t acknowledge you and chose to leave your life.

I don’t know if my moonstone influenced this dream, but I feel like writing it down makes me take it in more and pay attention to the possible lesson and make a conscious effort to heed it.

I think I’ll meditate again tonight.

xo

December 16th, 2015 – 8:42 am

I’ve just completed my fourth meditation with my moonstone and I’ve already decided to do another tonight. Every step of progress inspires me to keep going.

This morning, after finally waking up, I decided to do my meditation while I was still in bed and therefore still in a relaxed state. I did still struggle to concentrate and keep my mind from wandering, but there was some progress.

Beginning with my moonstone in my left hand, there was a steady tingling sensation. When I found it difficult to focus, I placed the crystal over my womb area again and the sensation was very pleasant. Still struggling to concentrate, in the final part of my meditation I chose to place my moonstone over my heart chakra. The response was immediate.

A warm, tingling sensation spread at the place where the crystal sat, strong and steady. I tried harder to focus on the stone and let its energies influence me and teach me. I had an overwhelming sense of peace. A warm peacefulness filled me and I had thoughts of how the moonstone is a goddess stone and I felt a very strong connection with this message. I’ve always known this, but I felt it confirmed warmly through the physical sensations the crystal gave me.

I’m going to give it another shot tonight and see what happens.

xo

December 24th, 2015 – 1:20 pm

I’ve meditated with my moonstone more since my last entry, slept with it next to my bed, under my pillow, and used it during oracle card readings. I feel it’s a great addition to the readings I do with my Goddess deck specifically, much like how I felt a strong urge to use one of my large natural rose quartzes with my Halloween oracle deck.

My meditations with my moonstone have not had the same clear, obvious messages that I received when working with my fluorite crystal. So I’ve tried to pay attention to how I feel and think and act in my day to day life since beginning the work with my moonstone. The consistent message I feel has manifested within my life is a need to help heal myself physically. I feel like my random choices in crystals to work with for this assignment has turned out to be a great aid in the current transitional period of my life.

My fluorite crystal taught me to heal spiritually and my moonstone taught me to heal myself physically.

I feel as though I’m moving in the right direction with myself.

This is huge for me.

I’m always thinking of every other person and circumstance and what I have to do and what they’ll think. I’ve truly neglected myself over the years. I’ve finally reached a point where I am going to come first. New house, new job, love, business… Every decision I make will be made with my best interests in mind. I will do what’s best for me. This is not selfishness.

This is an awakening.

This is the start of my true love story…with myself.

I will continue to grow and heal, spiritually and physically and emotionally and mentally.

I will be the best version of myself that I can be. And I will bring others higher with me.

Merry Christmas. xo

[where did this girl go? – 04/29/16

She’s still here. <3 – 11/07/16]

December 28th, 2015 – 9:57 am

From my books, this is what I found Moonstone to be traditionally associated with:

Mystery, self-discovery, intuition, insight, dreams, the goddess; wind; aligns with the third eye and crown chakras; the gem of the high priestess, keeper of the feminine mysteries; in its projected light we can project and thereby observe the hidden truths that reside in the depths of ourselves; talisman for the inward journey; ideal to wear during past-life regression sessions; can reveal a woman’s feminine power to herself and her connection to the goddess; allows men the expression of their feminine side; enhances the intuitive side of the mind; long been valued as helping one move closer to the Great Mother; in women it initiates the kundalini energy and promotes the psychic ability of clairvoyance; in men it stimulates the right side of the brain and encourages nonlinear thinking and emotional balance; aids in clearing the aura and activating the central chakra column of energy; the energy and power of the Moon; the frequency of moonstone encourages us to pay attention to the cycles of our lives; asks us to celebrate the milestones and rites of passage each new cycle brings; evokes patience and appropriate action; teaches the value of working with Divine timing instead of railing against its sometimes ponderous pace; teaches to identify the current stage of one’s creation and to act appropriately for the proper nurturance of that stage; can help to become attuned to one’s guides and follow their guidance; help sort through emotions and gain a higher perspective on their meaning and purpose; aids in releasing frustration and surrendering to the natural progress; enhances patience; helps to remain objective when receiving empathic information from others; helpful in stabilizing female cycles; can help males become attuned to the subtle hormonal shifts they experience during the moon phases; can be used to help balance water retention.

January 21st, 2016

I’ve left a gap for more information pertaining to moonstones from some of my other texts, but would like to move forward with my other assignments.

Before I do that, I must make note that my moonstone did, in fact, connect with me. While I may not have experienced a tangible example during meditation, when I looked back on some notes I’d made during the same period as my moonstone meditations, I realized that my intuitive abilities were greatly enhanced outside of my meditations. Not only did I perform readings for myself with confidence and better accuracy, I also sensed a vehicle collision one night.

If I didn’t date everything I may never have made the connection. While I was convinced nothing was going on and I wasn’t connecting with my moonstone, outside of my meditations my psychic abilities were flourishing.

I’ve been associating specific stones and crystals with some of my decks and though I feel it would be a great aid to have my moonstone present for all my readings, I feel I was called to use certain crystals with certain decks for a reason. Such as:

Gilded Tarot – clear quartz
Halloween Oracle – rose quartz
Goddess Oracle – moonstone

I feel I associated my moonstone with my Goddess deck for the divinely feminine energies of the stone, but now I truly believe it enhances my readings, just as I believe the rose quartz enhances the readings of my Halloween Oracle deck.

Just wanted to throw this entry in as I felt it was very important.

xo

So, as you can see, I have always struggled with consistency, among other things. Re-reading these entries has been quite a treat. What a glimpse into my life at that time, who I was, who I thought I was becoming. What was unfolding in and around me. These entries were honest and sometimes vulnerable (and it warmed my heart a little to see the added notes on the entry from Christmas Eve; I still felt lost, but I still had my own back).

To update you, I didn’t get a new house, or the new life I was hoping for. Five months later I would choose a man over myself (again), back burner my dreams (again), and proceed to endure some of the hardest years my mind and spirit would face. Sometimes I wish we could go back and warn ourselves, save ourselves from such pain, but then the question arises of who we would be now without those trials.

It isn’t lost on me that had I followed my dreams instead of that man, I would’ve been in exactly the right place at potentially the exact right time to meet my soulmate ten years before now, six years sooner than we did.

But I can’t dwell on that. I wouldn’t trade what I have now for all the kingdoms of this world or any other.

I hope these peeks into my experience as a student, as a true beginner, help ease the pressure you may put on yourself to get it right, to get it perfect, to know all the things as soon as possible and be the very best. I’ve learned that my pursuit of perfection has a lot less to do with getting it perfect, and a lot more to do with avoiding someone pointing out that it isn’t.

We’re human. We were literally designed to be beautiful chaos. Stop trying to fit your chaos into someone else’s design.

Love you. Thank you for being here, and reading my thoughts.

Sending so much love,